Jang II

It was Friday when I called. You texted me saying you were out of Chagar Hutang. But when I replied, you didn't reply back. Weird. Next thing I know, you are already on your way back to Chagar Hutang and you are going back home the next Friday.

And so, I waited.

Every now and then, I drop a message before I go to sleep on your chat. It's just to say I remember you and you are not forgotten. Every night for the next one week after that Friday, I never forget.

One week passed. Oh God, wasn't it the worst one week ever!

I was scrolling my chat feed when I crossed yours. From single tick to double that morning and I wonder why haven't I got any message from you yet.

It was 7.21pm and your text went through.

"Jang ada kat rumah dah. Baru sampai. Tadi hantar kawan balik."
"Oh okayy" I replied.
"Ahad ni Jang pergi KL. Nak hantar kawan. Dia nak balik UK dah."
"Oh okay. Pergilah. Naik bas? Ke drive?" I asked.
"Flight lah. Jimat masa." and he continued,
"sebenarnya ni gf Jang. Dia study kat UK, gf Jang cina" he told.
"Kenapa tak cakap? Jang, takyah message Ainn dah lah. Senang."
"Jang tak tahu. Dia habis lambat lagi. Tak tahu dia nak convert ke tak."

And the shit continues.

"Kalau Ainn rasa Jang ni jahat sangat, ignore jela Jang. Jang faham."
"Don't worry. I will."

This feeling is indescribable.

I am not mad for the fact that I don't get to have him. It's the fact that he lied straight to my face, about wanting to know me, telling me he sincerely wants to hit on me. And if after this introductory process, we found out that we are fucking comfortable with each other, we should just get the fuck marry each other.

What. Is. Wrong. With. You??

"Kenapa marah?? Kita kan kawan. Kita mmg kawan!"

This shit would not have reach this far IF you were honest about you being in a relationship. I shall draw a line in between us so we won't get to romanticize everything with each other.

But we did.

I don't give a fuck about your girlfriend graduating in 5 or 10 or 20 years to come. And I definitely do not give a fuck at all if she wants to convert or not.

I doubt she will.

Especially for a fucking asshole like you. She won't. Trust me. I know this shit.