craps.

So, this is the time where everyone knows I'm on my vulnerable mode.

Just came back from a long walk in the middle of the night..alone.

No, no. Don't go too far. I'm alone because I wanted to. He didn't leave me. I went out to have a walk. Things were just too complicated that when I thought about it only and only thought about it, I burst into tears.

Sad, isn't it?

For me to turn into this me now you're looking at, the most and just the horriblest thing had happened. And I thanked God for it, as it had shaped me into this. I'm proud of myself you know. After all those silly things I've done in school, I managed to run far. Far away from failure. Far away from sadness.

The only thing chasing right now is depression.

Right now, right on this moment, my best friend just happened to pass by. Laughing with his girlfriend. Laughing hard. Talking and laughing, laughing and talking, then there comes the giggle.

You just don't have the right to say that they are happy. You just don't know what they've been through. You just don't.

I hope you just don't regret reading this. I'm just crapping. Nobody's listening. So, I'm forcing people to read. And if you're still reading this, I won.

Mama, baba, Ainn rindu. Ainn nak balik.