how do I say this?

hey sayang..

I'm in good health.

I don't feel good.

I don't know why.

but I feel sad.

I want you to know,

I love you.

no matter how far you go,

I love you.

I am always eager to know what you do,

what are you doing and everything..

but the world limits me.

hand tied together,

nothing to do.

maybe you're going far.

faraway from me.

maybe I'm not used to it.

but I'll try.

I'll try to be strong.

strong enough so that both of us won't fall in the end.

don't give up.

I want you to not give up and get your price.

just go.

ignore me.

I'll be fine.

but remember,

while walking through the journey and you bump into someone else better then me,

go for her.

catch her.

I know you can.

you are a smart man.

I know you'll paused.

you'll think of me.

but that thought is just a glimpse..

that girl is now reality, and I am just an old dream..

run faster and catch her.

I know I'm not capable of taking care of you like I used to,

but I hope you'll find her.

I know you will and she will be taking care of you.

prepare you food,

iron and fold your cloth like I used to.

haha.

remember sayang,

you use to bring me bread with peanut butter and fried rice with tea.

I still remember how you lied about that apple.

you told me you brought two apples with you,

but then you gave me one and you watched me ate it.

I still remember how you dedicate that yellow card song to me..

I still remember how tight your hugs were..

but now,

no more..

goodbye.

have a good life.

I love you.

and I will always..